To Andre

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Firstly to others... This is not a thread for discussion on whether Yacoob is being serious or not etc.. this is a follow on topic to the thread started the other day.

Andre.
Now ok, you see the title to the thread and you could be thinking, "o here we go, another message about how much I have to live for and thinking about my family and how selfish i'm being blah blah blah, I appreciate it and all but they don't understand etc." Well Fark that idea of how selfish your being, let's talk about you, seeing as you are the one that isn't feeling good about your long term situation, and I believe you can afford to be a little selfish here because you are the issue and you have to live with yourself all the time. (That's the most times i've ever fit 'you' into a sentence ever, written or spoken. I am proud.)

First thing I notice about you Andre. Your creative. Most people truly have nothing remotely like that skill, they might be a bit alright to look at, or can work out sums without a calculator and shit, but nothing as fun/useful as creativity.
I noticed this when you'd created a real scene/buzz when people were chatting about your post's in the main, instead of just another player out there, there was this funny three dimensional character going around giving us a laugh called "Yacoob." Other people sorta followed suit, but were more tilted towards the pure annoyance than the colourful entertainment (you balanced both perfectly ha.) And to most people that played, minus the players that were really into 'Roar... Performing the best' you were a great player to have around. This was shown when, if I remember correctly, you retired..... the first time (heh) and people were posting messages saying its gonna suck now.

Now you may say, what does that really amount to in OB? Well it doesn't amount to much... in OB. But in the grand scheme of things, nothing in OB amounts to anything at all (Soz Mik). All the top players would probably tell you that, if they were speaking with total honesty. Oh yes, we get angry and competitive and love the victories, but most of the top performers know that, when it all comes down to it, success in OB doesn't really amount to anything, other than a little self pride maybe.
But what I know is that your enjoyment of this game (prolly inspired by a interest in boxing and computer games) sparked off a creative urge when you saw a potential to explore that on the message board. You must of enjoyed making those posts up, in a short term time scale anyway, you spent ages creating these elaborate and funny posts. Problem is, this game isn't about the written creativity, so it couldn't of been that fulfilling to you, even as a sorta hobby.

But Andre, there are things out their which are ALL about the creativity and are fulfilling... long term, they are just a little bit harder to come across and get involved in than typing 'Boxing Game' in google. By the way, I just did that and OB is still the last result on the page

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All you need to find is something that will spark your interest for creativity as much as OB did and gradually work your way into it.

This ties in with another point a friend of mine has made to me in the past. He often gets these sorts of tendencies (with a similar sort of unstable background story) and when i've talked to him about it he says the best way he has found to deal with it and enjoy his life more is to always stay socially active. As silly as that may sound (in curing a serious problem), it really does help by being active outside of the normal family/work procedure. And when I say socially active I don't mean diving into bars and clubs. All they are good for is drinking, drugs and shagging, and (if failing in the shagging) usually scrapping. That is never going to fulfil anybody long term, at best you'll feel good for a while because you were able to get a ride on Miss. Lucy Onenighter. But that is not the answer to all your problems, no matter what your body tells you or drives you towards. All of that human nature stuff works in continuous cycles and your never gonna get enough of it, the booze, the parties, the girls (supposedly even when you get older and it doesn't seem to stand up wanting any more).

So what will the outcome of your typical modern nightly social event be (in a bar or club)? The day after you'll become exasperated with the whole situation, because even aquiring the thing you thought you wanted the night before (a girl or a great night) has hardly managed to keep you happy, even for a day.

But Andre, there are more inspiring activities out there that you can get involved in. It just feels so hopeless now because it seems like an unrealistic possibility and there is no obvious pathway of direction (or a get there easy guide) leading you towards it. But trust me, chat about it, do a little research and you'll soon be into something that is as much fun as playing a character and creating crazy posts, but that actually matters! And before you know it, you'll of got so involved with this, so little of your time will be spent up thinking of the negative.

And lastly, man there's some interesting sports results coming up soon... you gonna miss those?

Give us a reply Andre, i'd really appreciate it.

Who knows if its real or not. But If it is. I feel for him..... I mean I hope nothing we have done here or called him has affected him. Because say shit they dont mean all the time.

People who known me sense I started know that I was once a handfull on the forum aswell ingame chat. but the thing is its all for fun.

Andre,

If your serious I wish you would think about it. If people dont care about u then fuck em... So if u kill your self it means nothing to them. Just because you dont have a great blood family doesnt mean there isnt people out there who cares about u.

Life is a gift and a privlage live it to the foolest. Your a funny/good guy inside ive had one on one chats with u outside your alter ego.

All in on all man..... Andre dont do it. I for one will never forgot you or this stuff.

Anybody got Yacoob's email?

This message was edited 1 time. Last update was at 07/10/2007 20:27:25

That's fucking amazing dude. Nobody has ever nailed it on the head like you just did Squeezed. Now you see my dilemma from it's very root. The lack of creativity is what stifles everybody in the world today and is the cause of so much suffering. ART is the very essence of our being because we are creators just like our CREATOR. It's true i have so much to offer the world its rediculous. I can write some of the most amazing stories from scratch, if i could draw you would see some of the most amazing drawings because my mind is in itself a 3 Dimensional Creative engine. I can see and visualize things in my mind as clear as i can see day to day things. The people around me are like computers that think in terms of convenience and not in terms of intuition or creative expression in other words experimenting with things even though they may be considered out of the norm. The NORM is the biggest poison of all time out here because we fear what is different and fear to change our patterns and are afraid to blossom ourselves because of our FEAR OF CRITICISM. But i've never been like that even though it's caused me suffering, pain, heartbreak, and adversity. But Squeezed Head if there's anybody that understands where i'm coming from it's you and that's powerful which means you understand a lot of things you just keep silent about it.

Madd respects man

yacoob arent u gunna die tuesday?

So what's going on Andre?
Have you decided.

The Great Yacoob wrote: The NORM is the biggest poison of all time out here because we fear what is different and fear to change our patterns and are afraid to blossom ourselves because of our FEAR OF CRITICISM.

thats a good point, often people are afraid to do exactly what they want, be themselves and be happy, because of fear of other's reactions.

Yacoob do you 100% want to end it? Because if your going to do it, you have to be more certain of it than youve been certain of ANYTHING else.

I care, Lots of people care.

DON'T have a FEAR OF CRITICISM about changing your mind or if you carry it through. - just do what will make you truly happier and i'll respect you for it.

he might be scared that people wil take the pis if he changes his mind.

I have thought about it Squeezed and i sent you a PM and i can't download it on their computer because it slows it down so meet me in the OB room i'll be on all night tonight